Monday, October 26, 2009

A day of new findings.

I sometimes wonder why everyone comes to me with their problems. It doesn't bother me, I'm more then glad to help, but I would like to have the same in return sometimes.
A close friend of mine who I could tell that something was bothering her for the past week,told me that she was tired of being a wife and a mother and wanted to be "bad".
I'm thinking, really? It is very out of her person to be thinking this, So she then tells me that someone who she liked found her on one of the social net works. And that she found herself thinking of him and wanting to meet him places. ECT....
So because she was thinking this she felt like a bad person, and that she shouldn't be thinking this..

My response to her was , "you are not a bad person, you are only human" And she is.. I don;t care who you are , male or female. At some point in your life, everyone has that "what if's" WHAT IF.. I had married this person, WHAT IF..I had waited to have my children..WHAT IF...the world ends today and I didn't do everything that I wanted.. You get the point..
As her friend I told her of a incident that had happened to me that was kind of the same , only he lives in NY.

I have a friend who lives in NY. I have known him for a long time now, met him online when I was prego with my oldest. There was something about him that just clicked. He made my heart race, just the sound of his voice melted my heart.And I would wait for our nightly talk's on the phone. At some point I fell in love with this mystery person so to say. And he asked me to come see him. And I freaked and never went. Nine years later and I found him on a social network. I gave him my number, just to see if I felt the same way . At the sound of his voice and the words "I LOVE YOU" after 9 years gave me butterflies , and once again my heart raced and melted. His voice felt like home if that makes sense. But I have a boyfriend and three kids. We said our "I've loved you for the longest time" and I backed away. I have a family and even thou my boyfriend and I don't always see eye to eye all the time, I am still the mother of 2 of his kids and I do love him..
NY guy, I love him with all my heart still. But I would never be able to be with him.

So to anyone who has ever or is feeling this I'll tell you what I told her.

YOUR ARE ONLY HUMAN. We have so many faults I don't think that anyone could ever count them all. It doesn't matter if you are married, have a boyfriend. At sometime in your life after being with a person for so long, you start to feel like things are not exciting anymore. You don't do the same things before you had kids. He doesn't talk to you the way he used to .. It doesn't mean that things are over. It means that you guys need to re find each other . I think that every relationship can be saved ( except maybe abuse one's, been in that it was NOT saved) if you take what was right in the beginning , what brought the two of you together, and re invent it.. Start little , date night 's once a week, and go from there.

My day was just WOOHOO.. lol This was just in the morning. And I know what I want to say but it is not coming out right.. So LOVE ME LOL

I think that will be my new thing for today.. "YOUR ONLY HUMAN"

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